February 2012
8 posts
Crazzzzyyyyyy! Only 6 days left in Nashville! I’m actually starting to be a little excited, starting over can be a good thing sometimes.
My shower was wonderful:) I really do work with a bunch of caring, amazing people. Jackson was very spoiled by everyone, and I can’t thank these people enough for supporting me in every way possible. This definitely wasn’t an easy decision to...
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no one ruin my day today. It’s baby shower #1, and still very weird. I’m going to have to sit there while all my coworkers stare at me opening presents. Is it bad that I just hope the cupcakes are good? I love everyone I work with, and this is just the first reminder than I only have a week left with them.
Also, to my friend, you know who you are. I genuinely care about your well...
Stress.Stress.Stress.
I just want to be out of here already. I want my things moved out of my apartment. I want my car on a trailer on the way to Cali. I want my cats to be safe and sound in Auburn. I am going to be stressed until this is all done, and I only have 12 days left in this city. Just have to keep reminding myself this is almost over and it will be all worth it. Fingers crossed.
So I haven’t used this thing in ages…hence why none of my posts involve anything about my current life. The last entry I had before today was in October, only days before I found out I was pregnant by my ex and only days after I had decided I was really over him. Shitty, right? I found out I was pregnant on Halloween, and that same day my babys’ father tells me he is moving back...
I don’t mean to be a dick….but I don’t want a man that I have to fix. I have worked SO hard at making myself good for me and for someone else that I REFUSE to settle. I don’t want to fix your credit, find you a job, show you how to manage your bills and money…be a MAN and do that shit yourself. It’s extremely unattractive to have to take care of the person you...
October 2011
11 posts
I think I finally have it together. Fucking took me long enough, I can tell ya that. But what I realized is…I’m a total fucking catch. And if you don’t want me, it’s your loss. But don’t come crying to me when someone else sweeps me off my feet. :D
Somebody pinch me….I’m afraid I feel nothing anymore
Off to Disney tomorrow!!! I hope I have an amazing time, I’ll try to post pics when I remember. I need this, to get away and have fun and not think about anything but Mickey and Minnie and acting like a huge child. My mind is growing tired of trying to figure out the mixed messages, the stolen glances and the drunken rendezvous turned early morning cuddles. If you want me, I’m here. If...
One of these days, you’re going to lose me for good. Any chance, any hope, any glimmer of what we could have been will be gone. I hope you’re ok with that. I’m not.
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I’ve found a peaceful place for the time being. Im hoping I can stay here for a while and that my big, stupid, girly, filled with emotion brain doesn’t ruin it. Feelings…who needs em??
September 2011
19 posts
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Please let me become a better, stronger person rather than the girl I usually tell my friends not to become.
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The truth is out here →
how-to-kiss-distinctly-american:
Women who drink two or more cups of coffee a day are less likely to get depressed, research suggests.
It is not clear why it might have this effect, but the authors believe caffeine in coffee may alter the brain’s chemistry. Decaffeinated coffee did not have the same effect.
Think I need to up my intake
I need something to believe in, because all the things I used to believe in have completely let me down.
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I really really just want to be happy again. I just don’t know where to go from here.
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Kinda sucks when you realize you’re not a priority in someones life anymore.
Today is going to suck. I should have been super excited today. I should have been finishing my last minute errands and packing for Cali tomorrow. Instead, I’ll probably end up crying myself to sleep because I’m NOT going, because I wont see him for almost two weeks and I know it doesn’t bother him like it bothers me. Part of me wants to tell him to not even text me while he is...
It’s 9/11. What a day. I remember exactly where I was and what i was doing ten years ago this day. I didn’t think I would be so emotional, and then I started watching memorial ceremony. I was sobbing by the time he got here for lunch. He cried too, and rubbed my back as I cried. I should feel grateful and thankful for my life and my health and my family. Instead, I feel sad for what I...
Still trying. Still struggling. Happy one day, sad the next. I need to take control of myself again. I’m not sure where to go from here. I made a few baby steps in the right direction, but its not enough. I wonder if there will be a day when I wake up and I feel a hangover instead of heartache. When I’ll feel hopeful instead of hopeless. When he isn’t the first thing on my mind....
4 weeks since you broke my heart into a million pieces. It still feels like yesterday.
August 2011
27 posts
I still hurt. I’m not sure when this will end. I’m trying to be his friend, he keeps me far enough away that he won’t have to feel anything. Why is this happening to me? I haven’t wanted anything this badly in I don’t know how long. I hate that I know this isn’t as painful to him. He will go on, i don’t know about me though.
I can’t say I’m not glad I have this place. I feel like I have exhausted every other avenue of expressing exactly what I’m feeling right now. I’m not using facebook…I don’t even want to remotely know where you may be or what you might be doing. Plus, I don’t have much to say that doesn’t involve my broken heart. Twitter, yeah…it helps for about...
It only hurts now when I’m awake. Thanks thunderstorm for waking me up and bringing me back to reality. The best part of my days now are when my body finally gets so tired of crying and being upset that it lets me falls asleep. Sometimes, I wish I had no heart to love with at all.
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